[ the raw disappointment radiating from Steve shouldn't bother him as much as it does. it makes him put up more walls. ]
And then I'd have to keep repeating that mantra to you every time a fresh kill pops up.
[ trust is impossible between a vampire and a mortal. he's only being reasonable. and sooner or later the bodies will start piling up with him and Lestat and the girl vampire here. not to even mention the other monsters Louis is not yet familiar with. ]
I take no enjoyment in what my nature dictates, but that's no guarantee that I will never do it again. There's no part left in me that's human, Steve. The sooner you realize that, the better.
[ he could say more on the subject, but he tires of the whining of mortals. he's feeling enough guilt as it is. ]
all those typos franni u should have yelled at meeeee
( this sounds like a way better solution for everyone involved. Steve wouldn't have to get on his case, Louis wouldn't have to do this closed off uncaring unfeeling I am a monster and you should just accept that BULLSHIT that he's doing right now. because it is bullshit — right?
because if Louis were really just a soulless and unfeeling, Steve knows he could have been a boysnack two weeks ago. why else would he still be walking and talking right now, if not for some part of Louis that is capable of caring. of fighting his nature. still human enough that he chose hunger over hurting someone. someone that was being a real pain in the ass, by the way!!! )
If you don't like it, then do something different. Try and be better. If you try, I can help you. I want to. I still want to. You know that, right?
( it's stupid. he should DEFINITELY take the guy that murdered two people at his word and trust he will kill again. and yet Steve can't quite help himself. because he really wants to believe the part of Louis that is charming, and smart, and thoughtful, and funny, and kind enough to put him back together when he didn't deserve it — he is desperate to believe that is the real Louis. not the hunger. )
[ it is stupid. he could tell that this was coming a mile away and yet he still wasn't prepared to hear it so soon. damn it Steve, you and your bleeding heart. don't invite vampires into your home! learn from this! ]
Again you're saying things you don't know the repercussions of.
[ he's growing more and more frustrated that he has to be the one to tell him that this is not a great idea. even if the basic, logical reasons for offering to become a bloodbag weren't enough, there's the complicated matter of Lestat. to Louis's knowledge the other vampire isn't involved yet, but he will be. he's always involved in everything he does. ]
Are you hooked on dying, Steve? [ a cruel question, asked in earnest. ]
( wow!!! way to ASSUME help meant cracking his vein open like a keg!! ! that's assuming this dumbass thought it through, like at all, I assure you he hasn't!!!
there's some personal complications at play here. being an occasionally murderous blood starved vampire ≠ being a dick in high school. but listen. Steve really does think there is more to Louis than an urge to suck down O-. this is Louis' fault. he should have just been a overt dick 24-7 instead of just when they're actively beefing. then this would have never happened! )
What? ( the question is so out of nowhere Steve doesn't know what to do with it. ) No, man! I don't like dying. Nobody fucking likes dying.( Louis, why do you think he's got a bee in his bonnet about killing ppl? bc he's been there, and it sucks! )
I've known some who enjoyed it. Death can be pleasurable if you do it right. [ he offers calmly like a psychopath. unfortunately this will only piss Steve off further and it is not the point he was trying to make so. moving on. ] You don't have to like it, but your body and mind have grown used to it. Perhaps there is even a forbidden thrill to it. Why else would you voice your desire to die so eagerly?
[ "i want to." "i want to." be more obvious, Steve. helping a vampire in need isn't the same as helping an old lady cross the street. Louis doesn't allow him to speak up before he can finish what he was saying. ]
When I killed those two men it was just after I had finished drinking from the Chevalier. He offered himself to me and I wanted to keep him alive. I couldn't get enough and the two others had to pay for his generosity. There is no safe way to do this. There is no "something different".
[ okay, he was high from the suspicious drink offered at the festival, but his point still stands. ]
( well, if Louis wants Steve to get off his back, more talk like "death can be pleasurable" will do it quick. palpable in the brain chat. )
You're being such an asshole right now. ( it is SO RUDE to use a boy's fog trauma against him like this. Steve, for one, does not think it is true at all — he is not offering to die. he didn't even think it through enough to realize it'd sound like he was offering to be a metaphorical canape. oops. he gets it now, though, and... well, it wouldn't be a great solution. but it'd be better than two dead townies coming up at town hall, now wouldn't it? )
You're acting like I'm too fucking dumb to get it, but even I could tell you that barely eating is gonna make it hard to stop once you hit a buffet. If letting you bite me sometimes would make it better, then yeah, I'd do it. But not if you want a free pass to keep on killing people, because even I'm not that stupid.
[ you know what else is rude, Steve? being asked to enable your friend's self-destructive behavior. ]
It wouldn't be just biting. [ a lot of sucking would follow. ] It would be a lot of pain and exhaustion. You're malnourished. Losing blood on top of all that and you'd be out of the game in no time.
( self destructive according to Louis. misguided attempts at helping a friend, and keeping the townies from ending up vampire food, in Steve's estimation. it's a 2 birds 1 stone situation. aren't both of these good things??? )
Then maybe try being less of a dick to everybody and maybe I won't be the only one willing to help you. ( Steve is NOT willing to crowdsource snacks for Louis. he's just PUTTING IT OUT THERE that being a charming hot guy from Louisiana could probably be doing Louis more favors than it currently is. ) I'm not stupid. I know it'll hurt. At least it could be good for something for once.
( as long as Louis stops eating the locals, is the obvious caveat. )
[ he laughs darkly. the thought is so ridiculous. in his own mind he's the melancholy loner, the cool outsider, the dangerous vampire. people don't like monsters. except Steve apparently. ]
( well there's a lot of freaks around here, Louis. and again, you're just SO hot. charming and hot can get a guy far!
despite the fact Louis is a vampire, and apparently killed two dudes in a blood rage, there is not a lot of fear in the mind link. no, the mind link is more like... wanting to grab the guy by the shoulders and shake him, like that could help get through to the dumbass. is that an emotion? whatever word there is for it, the brain chat feels like that. )
Fine. Sure. But if you think about it to the point of eating another local, then you can go fuck yourself.
( this offer is STRICTLY for well behaved vampires. 😤 )
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And then I'd have to keep repeating that mantra to you every time a fresh kill pops up.
[ trust is impossible between a vampire and a mortal. he's only being reasonable. and sooner or later the bodies will start piling up with him and Lestat and the girl vampire here. not to even mention the other monsters Louis is not yet familiar with. ]
I take no enjoyment in what my nature dictates, but that's no guarantee that I will never do it again. There's no part left in me that's human, Steve. The sooner you realize that, the better.
[ he could say more on the subject, but he tires of the whining of mortals. he's feeling enough guilt as it is. ]
all those typos franni u should have yelled at meeeee
( this sounds like a way better solution for everyone involved. Steve wouldn't have to get on his case, Louis wouldn't have to do this closed off uncaring unfeeling I am a monster and you should just accept that BULLSHIT that he's doing right now. because it is bullshit — right?
because if Louis were really just a soulless and unfeeling, Steve knows he could have been a boysnack two weeks ago. why else would he still be walking and talking right now, if not for some part of Louis that is capable of caring. of fighting his nature. still human enough that he chose hunger over hurting someone. someone that was being a real pain in the ass, by the way!!! )
If you don't like it, then do something different. Try and be better. If you try, I can help you. I want to. I still want to. You know that, right?
( it's stupid. he should DEFINITELY take the guy that murdered two people at his word and trust he will kill again. and yet Steve can't quite help himself. because he really wants to believe the part of Louis that is charming, and smart, and thoughtful, and funny, and kind enough to put him back together when he didn't deserve it — he is desperate to believe that is the real Louis. not the hunger. )
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Again you're saying things you don't know the repercussions of.
[ he's growing more and more frustrated that he has to be the one to tell him that this is not a great idea. even if the basic, logical reasons for offering to become a bloodbag weren't enough, there's the complicated matter of Lestat. to Louis's knowledge the other vampire isn't involved yet, but he will be. he's always involved in everything he does. ]
Are you hooked on dying, Steve? [ a cruel question, asked in earnest. ]
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there's some personal complications at play here. being an occasionally murderous blood starved vampire ≠ being a dick in high school. but listen. Steve really does think there is more to Louis than an urge to suck down O-. this is Louis' fault. he should have just been a overt dick 24-7 instead of just when they're actively beefing. then this would have never happened! )
What? ( the question is so out of nowhere Steve doesn't know what to do with it. ) No, man! I don't like dying. Nobody fucking likes dying. ( Louis, why do you think he's got a bee in his bonnet about killing ppl? bc he's been there, and it sucks! )
cw: suicidal ideation
[ "i want to." "i want to." be more obvious, Steve. helping a vampire in need isn't the same as helping an old lady cross the street. Louis doesn't allow him to speak up before he can finish what he was saying. ]
When I killed those two men it was just after I had finished drinking from the Chevalier. He offered himself to me and I wanted to keep him alive. I couldn't get enough and the two others had to pay for his generosity. There is no safe way to do this. There is no "something different".
[ okay, he was high from the suspicious drink offered at the festival, but his point still stands. ]
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You're being such an asshole right now. ( it is SO RUDE to use a boy's fog trauma against him like this. Steve, for one, does not think it is true at all — he is not offering to die. he didn't even think it through enough to realize it'd sound like he was offering to be a metaphorical canape. oops. he gets it now, though, and... well, it wouldn't be a great solution. but it'd be better than two dead townies coming up at town hall, now wouldn't it? )
You're acting like I'm too fucking dumb to get it, but even I could tell you that barely eating is gonna make it hard to stop once you hit a buffet. If letting you bite me sometimes would make it better, then yeah, I'd do it. But not if you want a free pass to keep on killing people, because even I'm not that stupid.
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It wouldn't be just biting. [ a lot of sucking would follow. ] It would be a lot of pain and exhaustion. You're malnourished. Losing blood on top of all that and you'd be out of the game in no time.
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Then maybe try being less of a dick to everybody and maybe I won't be the only one willing to help you. ( Steve is NOT willing to crowdsource snacks for Louis. he's just PUTTING IT OUT THERE that being a charming hot guy from Louisiana could probably be doing Louis more favors than it currently is. ) I'm not stupid. I know it'll hurt. At least it could be good for something for once.
( as long as Louis stops eating the locals, is the obvious caveat. )
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[ he laughs darkly. the thought is so ridiculous. in his own mind he's the melancholy loner, the cool outsider, the dangerous vampire. people don't like monsters. except Steve apparently. ]
I'll consider your offer. There's still time.
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despite the fact Louis is a vampire, and apparently killed two dudes in a blood rage, there is not a lot of fear in the mind link. no, the mind link is more like... wanting to grab the guy by the shoulders and shake him, like that could help get through to the dumbass. is that an emotion? whatever word there is for it, the brain chat feels like that. )
Fine. Sure. But if you think about it to the point of eating another local, then you can go fuck yourself.
( this offer is STRICTLY for well behaved vampires. 😤 )
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Technically there are no locals.
[ and with that zinger he's out! ]